The Lord's Hand

I would feel ungrateful if I did not recognize the Lord's Hand in Kennedy's life and in ours right now.  I get choked up and cannot bear the thought of losing my little baby.  I've always known that would certainly be the hardest thing for me to bear in the whole world.  The day we found out about Kennedy's heart disease I was devastated!  Over the next few days I watched Kennedy smile and enjoy life, but I could not stop crying.  Cody offered me a blessing.  The third day I was able to  feel more peace.  The doctor talked to us that day and I realized that her life would be relatively normal, and her chance of dying now that her heart would be repaired was minimal.  I believe the Lord was able to calm me and give me peace and comfort.  Each step was still difficult, getting ready to leave our home with our complete family and hoping we would return as a complete family was heart wrenching.  How thankful I am though that we have the priesthood to give me strength to go through that process and take each new step toward her surgery and recovery.  It was obvious to me I was being watched over and helped through the spirit.  Kennedy was also watched over.  She has 3 grandparents in heaven who I believe were watching over her the entire time.  I know there were angels looking out for our sweet Kennedy.  The Lord loves her and I know he did not leave her alone through this.  I know these doctors are amazing. 

I did not realize until a few days after her surgery when a nurse pointed out to me that Kennedy's heart is the size of her fist.  They were operating on such a tiny little thing!  It's a miracle to me and I continue to see little miracles each day.  How grateful I am that through modern medicine we can have Kennedy's BEAUTIFUL smile with us still! Primary Children's is the best place we could be right now. We have an amazing support system with family who care about Kennedy as much as we do.  They're willing to spend so much time traveling to visit her and help with our other children so we can be with Kennedy as well.  We strongly believe in the power of prayer and fasting. We know there was plenty of that on her behalf and we couldn't be more thankful. We are grateful for the priesthood and the blessings Kennedy received in the days leading up to her surgery. I hope I never forget the Lord's Hand in my life.